Like clouds in the sky, some lite, some dark

Like autumn leaves that rushed away by streams

Our years are floating by: some leaving mark

Some disappearing, like forgotten dreams

Into my stormy life you came one day

With magic smile and with your golden hair

And soon I realized: you’re here to stay

The life without you I couldn’t bare

I crossed the world, climbed Mount Everest

Dove deepest oceans, just to name a few

But suddenly I found my sweetest rest

The main adventure of my life – in you

You are with me, through joy, and grief, and strife

Sweet harbor of my dreams, my love, my life

Beautiful city all covered in snow

Sleepy street lamps, frozen shadows, wind

Gray sky reflecting the yellow glow

Guilty of snowing, embarrassed and sinned

Windows, looking like empty eye sockets

Dark and abandoned, forgotten at night

Snow on the trees, on the roofs, on the buckets

Snow on the earth everywhere in the sight

Frozen are ponds, parks, highways and playgrounds

Everything is frozen by the wintery death

But alive our hearts – listen how they pound –

And alive silver cloud of your beautiful breath

And alive are snowflakes on you magic eyelashes

Melting into the tears of the snowy night

And alive is our fire, turning logs into ashes

That awaiting for us, warm, and cozy, and bright

We will hold our hands. We will lay by the fire

We will warm our hearts in its magical glow

Melting into each other, our dreams and desires

Into the beautiful night, and the wind, and the snow

Thirty five hundred years we’ve been dying for you

Our land, our soul, our tears, our blood

Thirty five hundred years we’ve been praying to you

“Adonai Eloheinu, Adonai Ehad”

We’ve been tortured and killed, we’ve been burned, we’ve been gassed

Our holiest books have been dragged through the mud

But we quietly whispered: “This too will be past

Adonai Eloheinu, Adonai Ehad”

Our talents and love offered we to the world

In return it’s accused us of plague, famine, flood

But above all injustice, all silver and gold

“Adonai Eloheinu, Adonai Ehad”

Our ashes and bones filled this Earth to the rim

Our sweat filled the land from Golan to Eilat

We at home again. We fulfill our dream

“Adonai Eloheinu, Adonai Ehad”

But the wonderful world cannot let us alone

And from havens on us fall kassam, scud and grad

Our towns, our homes, our children are blown

“Adonai Eloheinu, Adonai Ehad”

But we look in the future without any fears

And without any fears we can tell our God

“We’ve been living with this thirty five hundred years

And we’ll live for the next thirty five hundred years

Adonai Eloheinu, Adonai Ehad

It is so quiet I can hear snowflakes melting on your eyelashes

It is so quiet I can hear the wings of my desire flopping

It is so quiet I can hear logs burning into ashes

It is so quiet I can hear my heart stopping

It is so quiet because the snow is falling

It is so quiet because the winter is here

It is so quiet because the time is stolen

It is so quiet because you are so near

Your cheek is cold and so wet from snow

But underneath there is a burning fire

The night is young in its moonless glow

And filed with passion and desire

I’ll take your hand and up and slow

We’ll float towards the sky and clouds

All our troubles will get covered by snow

And hearts will shake off all worries and doubts

And there we are floating, no up, no down

In the milk of snow, in sweet winter air

Under the soft and weightless cloud’s dawn

Our souls are clear, our hearts are bare

The train speeding faster and faster

Trough snow, fog, sunshine and rain

Sometime just avoiding disaster

Sometime filled with moaning and pain

We look through the window – and rivers

And cities, and countries speed by

And crowds of sinners, believers

Along tracks stand, waving goodbye

We’re riding the train with no fear

It’s filled with murmur of guitars

With faces so lovely and dear

That lit by the moon and the stars

The stops come more often and often

At each – friend is leaving the train

And we take off.  Foggy and soften

His image will wash off in vain

The circle of friends ever tighter

Around the tireless guitar

And songs sound lighter and lighter

And loved ones so few and afar

When our stop comes – we don’t know

As long as we strum our strings

As long as the moon’s magic glow

Blow wind into our wings

As long as we filled with compassion

As long as the fields grow grass

As long as our hearts know passion

Our friends will be always with us

Could I just be myself today

Turn off my strong man, let him rest

The role that gives me life to play

I hope would be my very best

Could I just run to distant lands

Where I could be myself again

In tender fire of your hands

I would forget my scorching pain

Could you just heal me with your love

Without words, in tight embrace

Would hold me, like a fitted glove

Holds hand, with no empty space

Could you just kiss me, burn my lips

And whisper words that burn my ear

And touch my heart with fingertips

And bring me back from my despair

Could I just sing you songs tonight

And fall asleep, and dream of you

And wake up in the shining light

And see your face in morning dew

And I would happily dissolve

In the ocean of your eyes, my love

Don’t get upset because your child

Forgot to call – you wait for hours

Don’t get upset because your child

Forgot to bring you birthday flowers

They have their own highway to ride

With speed that we have never known

Don’t get upset, it’s their rite

Don’t feel abandoned and alone

You better learn to let them go

Don’t try to hang to their train

You better learn to let them go

Don’t let them see your tears and pain

For a moment stop your slow buggy

And watch them happy speeding by

Into the life that bright and foggy

Without waving you goodbye

Accept them once for what they are

And let them be, don’t push your luck

No matter how near or far

You step aside, don’t block their truck

You learn to sense them with your soul

And when it’s time – you wave farewell

And hide you tears with wordy wall

And drown your heart in their salty well

You love your children to the death

Forgive them everything on earth

You love your children to the death

From very moment of their birth

Whatever is their road and plight

Or will you see again them ever

Your love will keep them warm at night

Your love will be with them forever

Autumn rain, autumn sleep

Autumn wind, autumn light

Autumn look, autumn moan

Autumn passion of autumn years

Chorus:  Your tender voice with its faint rasp

                Makes me tremble

                And the heart rushes – gallop, and then trot

                And the happiness of being with you

    Makes me feel drunk from love

I will go out to my autumn garden

I’ll bury my face in the fallen leaves

There is no way back for us

The bridges are burned.

Chorus

Autumn rain washed away your tracks

Autumn wind blew out the candle

And we raced like horses without bridles

Under the gold of autumn brocade

Chorus

Autumn dream, autumn light

Autumn passion of autumn years

My little green courtyard

I visit you in my dreams

And wander around

Under cautious glances of the windows

And the apple tree in bloom

Gently extends its branches to me

And the canary in the copper cage

Sings in the open window

I see you, my friends,

My grimy vassals.

The masters of snowballs,

The dukes of the courtyard

I see us, zipping down the snowy hills in our city park

On wooden skis, on sleds,

In ripped t-shirts

In secret from our parents.

And a white bow, and a mysterious glance

And the magic of tight braids

And the heaviness of matches on the eyelashes –

Oh, how hard it is to hold them!

And January is slowly floating over the skating rink

Weaving together snowflakes and music

And a tired calendar

Quietly leafing through the months

In my dream.

And the ball, and the waltz, I’m spinning, flying

Delight, hope, awe, happiness …

Suddenly everything disappeared all at once

As if somebody blew out the candle of my dream.

And feeling that I live

Returning from nowhere

I shudder in anticipation of a miracle

In this beautiful and real world.

The pigeons are cooing on San Marco

The masts are waving goodbye to us 

It’s time, our little boat is waiting

Let’s try not to think of the future

We’ll float along red, yellow, blue

Old walls, carefully looking

At their and the sky’s reflection

In the cold gray mirror of the water

Let’s drop unnecessary and empty words

We can’t bring back what’s gone

We won’t share the last crumb of bread

We won’t shield each other from pain

The pigeons are cooing on San Marco

And a little boat again is waiting

This time it will leave without us

The sun is bright and blistering

The bridges are gracefully leaning over the canals

And the gondolas, fragile and empty,

Quietly sliding along, and slowly melting away, like you.

I have blue sky for you

I have the sun shining for you

I have the wind in the field for you

I have my sadness for you

My feeling for you will not go away

You are the only one for me in this world

Save me from this pain

Call for me – I’ll be back

I’ll return to you over mountains

I will return to you across rivers

Across the seas and oceans

Through the rain and sadness

Let the years flow away like rivers

Let eyelids swell with tears

Let the fog separate us

I’ll be back anyway

And I will rest my face in your hands

And will dry your tears with my lips

And calm your soul with my eyes

And will take away your pain

And we together will float forever

In the happiness of our dreams

Just listen to me

Let us love

The years are knocking on my window

Running down the glass, like tears

They are carrying me away

Through the sun, joy, rain and mist

And the milestones of my life

Fly by in a misty chain

Along the bumpy and steep

Country road of my destiny

And people stand along the road

Loved ones, and others

Waving to me looking into nowhere

And you stand in a foggy dream

My gone nowhere brother

And you smile at me

Like you did many long years ago

And I wave to you

And I call you with me

Here, where there are sounds and light

Where you are so dear to us

Where every day, many times

We imagine you

Where your mom and dad

Live in quiet grief

Come, Mishulya, look around

What wonderful sons you’ve got

How in a whirlwind of a waltz

Circling until dawn your princess-daughter

And how here in your memory

Happen so many good deeds

Come, do not accept your departure

Your life was incomplete when you flew away

But you are silent. Just a cheerful

Smile blooms on your face

We cannot turn the years back

We cannot predict our fate

And in the whirl of souls, the mingle of bodies

I suddenly understand:

You did not leave, did not fly away

You simply dissolved into us.

Fingers intertwine in sweet languor

Souls merge in a passionate plea

And I dream about you

Happy with you in our magic home

And snow is quietly spinning in my dream

And it covers us with its soft blanket

And the moon washes us with its tired light

As if calling us into our golden age

And your sweet sigh, your head on my shoulder

And the weary tenderness of your hands

And the dampness of your eyelashes. And words are powerless

To tell you what you would understand without words

And I dissolve in your breath

And we fly away to the enchanting light

To meet the magical dawn of our lives

That will shine for us for as long as we live

My beloved, when in mute longing

Minutes without you seem like long years

And your kiss – just a memory on my temple

Left by beloved lips –

Slowly melting away, like a speck of ice,

Quietly running down my cheek, like a tear…

Then I am all in you, near or far,

In happiness, in the fantasies, in the fleeting sadness…

I’m all in you. In dreams and in reality

When you are far away. When you’re nearby.

I breathe by you, I live by you.

With you, life blooms, like a magical garden

My soul is like a candle light

Trembles languidly under your breath …

And happiness is beyond distance

Close your eyes. And listen. In silence…

In the fog of past years, the ship bells rang out

And frothy waves bang with fury at my boat

And the lights go out slowly in the evening sky

And the whole world is getting dressed in silver moonlight

And everything seems eternal and imperishable

And my ship, crashing into the backs of the waves

Lost in the desert of the ocean

Full of hopes, dreams and pain

Is looking for the harbor, for the quiet pier

Of peace, of sleep, of promised land

But the nights are getting longer. And the clouds

Cover more and more of moonlight

And suddenly your voice sounds from afar

And the snow-white tender hand

Gently touches the gray of my hair

And the light of the distant beacon flashes

Calling me to your pier

And I feel tender lips at my temple

Whisper something in a slight touch

But what – I do not understand in the magic of my dream

And my ship will approach the pier

Where you have waited all your life, my friend

She will roll down her tired sails

Will fall asleep with a sweet smile

Nothing would disturb her happy sleep

I searched for this pier in my dreams all my life

And I am finally here.  And you are with me

And wherever I am – beautiful autumn will overtake me

In the delight of fire.

Will take me prisoner and, not hiding her love,

Will say to me innocently:

“Take me, I’m yours.

Take my fire, my fervent dreams,

My blazing October, maples, birches,

While I am overwhelmed with beauty…

As long as there is fire in my leaves

Enjoy me.

Drink my crisp air like wine, like a premarital drink

And burn me with your passion –

Add fire to my colors …

I’ll be gone soon, concealing my sadness

The birches will get covered with cold winter snow

The spring will shed it’s tears

And then – summer, with it’s heat, mosquitoes and dragonflies…

But all this will be later.

And today – I am here, your autumn,

Your blissful fairytale”

Play the pipe, my love

Years pass over us like clouds in the sky

May our lives avoid the storms

Let the beauty of being intoxicate us

Play the pipe, my love.

And even in the moment when you are far away

When I can’t touch you

As soon as I plunge into the sweet waves of memory

Life becomes delightful and beautiful

Even in the moment when you are far away

And my pipe – it is always with me

In anticipation of your magic lips

And of the gentle, passionate, healing sounds

Of magic, unearthly melodies  

My pipe – it is always with me

Play the pipe my love

Play as long as life grants us happiness

To love and die in the madness of passion

In that dream world, where there is only you and me

Play the pipe my love

The night has come, and again

My heart is uneasy

I would love to kiss you

Yet you are far, far away

I close my eyes,

But the sleep doesn’t come to me

And a dream like a tear

On eyelashes trembling in the dark

How did I find you?

I do not know, ask Destiny

I’ve been wading to you all my life

Through years of love and struggle

And when I saw you –

I dissolved in your eyes

And Destiny, with a smile,

 Extinguished my fear

Fear to push you away

Fear to fall in love with you

Fear to drown in you

And forget everything…

And the sand is streaming,

Flowing away in the hourglass…

To hell with the score of time

All I want is – to fall asleep in your tender hands

Only sleep doesn’t come to me

And a dream like a tear on my cheek

And the quivering shadow of your image

Slowly floats away

Yellow autumn leaf swirled by water

Carried away from me forever

Where will its restless journey end?

Just as our years.

Carry us into nowhere

No time to live, no time to breathe, no time to sleep…

The clouds alarmingly rushed across the gray sky

And somebody’s quiet life

Glided across the white mist of water,

Like a shadow of a great heron

Flying away forever from trouble

I’ll close my eyes, I’ll inhale the mist

And like the yellow leaf I’ll get carried away

Into that magical blue world

Where the years have no power over us.

“Love’s so precious, so fragile, so tender”, he says,

“Like send dollars we find on the beach 

Like this earth at its faults, it’s mysterious ways

So majestic, and painful, and rich”

“And your anger”, he says, “jarring and resonant 

Shutters rocks, throws life in a craze” …

“But love is like this earth, with the storms, tidal waves, 

With its faults and its blue skies”, she says

“It’s suspended and faithfully spinning around 

Hiding fire under beautiful core

And we’ll see autumn leaves slowly fall to the ground 

And sand dollars will wash to the shore” …

Love’s so precious, so fragile, so tender…

As I touch your skin –

I’m afraid – what if I wake up?

I’m afraid – what if it’s a dream?

I am afraid – what if it evaporates?

Suddenly, in the fog of yesterday

It might dissolve, abandon me

And I wake up in a cold sweat

Moaning my lost unearthly dream

But the magic eyes looking at me

And a tear like a dew fall on my cheek

And mysterious smile part the lips

And the enchanting call of nudity, like a wave…

And falling leaves rustle underfoot

And the bushes tremble with the wind

And the waves roar under the precipice

And the moon sadly shines

Look, my joy, around

And feel the warmth of my hands

And feel how full of happiness

We are –  the children of the moon

We are alone in this world

Let the days and years go by

We are the children of the moon

We are destined to each other

Оutside the window a white and tender cobweb of a quiet snow

Infinity stretches from the gray low sky

I am alone on this beautiful, sleeping, snow-white land

I am alone with the silence, there is nothing else I need

I’m alone with this virgin whiteness

I am alone with the majesty of these snowy pines

I am alone with myself. Only my thoughts are with me

Only my feelings, dreams, only what we carry in our soul

Everything disappeared in the mysterious snowy fog:

Cities, ships, mountains, faces of loved ones, friends

I am alone on earth, I am alone in this snowy nirvana

I am alone in the universe

And this universe is mine

Unexpected snowstorm
Behind the windows
April is ending
And a leap year is
Walking slowly backwards
From spring to winter …
My frozen soul
Stretches in a dream  
And quietly flies away
To those distant years
Where sweet snow creaks
Under the sled when  
Wrapped in a down blanket
Burying my sleepy nose in its fluff
Like a chick  
I hear the stars above me
In the cold high
Singing a beautifully unearthly
Melody to my dream  
And in that magical moment
And in that creaky snow
I seemed to realize
Something that stays with me forever  
Something that saves me
In this stormy life
Feeds fire to my soul
Protects and nurtures me…
I suddenly realize
That happiness is just a blink,
A swift moment…
And now, after many years
And mountains of smart books
I am wandering through life
Looking for moments of happiness …
Loving friends
The fire of passion
The splash of the sea wave
The shine of the snowy peaks
The magic light of the moon
The gold of aspen
The moment I breathe in
The moment I suddenly laugh
The moment I fall asleep
And the moment I wake up
The sweet moment when
I make someone happy
When the trouble is gone
And a friend comes to visit…
And those moments
Dance in a round dance
Of my happy days.
Like a tall ship
I sail down my destiny.
And the spring is here again
And the roofs are dripping
The snow is quietly melting
April takes over
And there is April in my heart…
Not from the smart books
But from those far away years  
I understood forever

That life is just a blink of a happiness
 
April 2020

There is no greater bliss

Then to be kissed by you,

To be destined

To float with you, my star,

In your tender magic light

There is no greater bliss

Then to listen to the sails flapping,

To see your eternal light

Calling for me…

To watch the trains leaving us behind

Speeding into nowhere…
To see how in the icy crowns

Of the quiet rivers

The snow is sadly melting

And the buds on the trees are getting plump and tight

And our loyal friend – the moon

Is shining her magic glow on us,

Commanding our lives…

There is no greater bliss

Then to be kissed by you…

They are going away. Into nowhere. Into other worlds

They leave so suddenly, so cruelly

Dear, loved, precious,

We feel empty, lonely

And the sun shines just like it did

And the wind still whispers softly in the leaves

Everything in the world is the same as it has been

And they are no longer with us in this light

And we will spin in the waltz of life

To love, to dream, to sing and to suffer

We’ll forget about everything in the delight of happiness

Hurrying along on the road of our destiny

Savoring the magical carelessness of being,

Orphaned, we will suddenly understand one day –

We are at the forefront. Before us – eternity

We are next. The circle has closed for us